[	Feeling	|	bored	]
[	Music	|	S Club 8 - Fool No More	]

So here's the rundown of yesterday in simple bullet points:

• Six Hours Driving Total (3 there, 3 back)
• Old People
• Ugly People
• There for 5 hours
• Hot security guard and guys playing tennis shirtless
• Nana's team one yay!
• Boring car journey home was in a pissy mood.

So yah yesterday was so dull. I got a bit of colour in my skin which is good! I'm happier today. Richie phoned me earlier and we spoke for 1 hour 9 minues at 6 seconds. <3 I like wanted to cry I missed him that much. Instead of crying I turned it into laughter. It was great hearing from him again. We're going out Friday around London as usual and then into KU for some fun and to flirt like bitches. I'm bored of being single. Apparently I could get a boyfriend like *snap* if I wanted, so I'm gonna try that. Ash is gonna meet us in the afternoon because he's a lazy ass whore, who needs the morning to put his make-up on. But he's gonna make us look super purday too so whee! ~*~

Got a shexay new Von Dutch hat too, tis Camo stylee and I'm gonna go all green and retro on friday and stun everyone lol! should be fun fun fun. Only a few more days to get through and Richie is home thank the dear lord.

[	Feeling	|	peaceful	]
[	Music	|	Frou Frou - Holding Out For A Hero	]

It went super well today! I handed in my application and spoke to this lady called Gwyne and she's gonna put my application to TOPMAN, WALLACE & OFFICE (new trendy/grungy shoe shop) and she said I was really sweet and confident and it shouldn't be difficult for me to get a job! She wrote comments on the back too which they can read and she wrote: "Super fashion sense/stunning personality/friendly/well spoken" so that must be good =D I wanted to hug her we kept making eachother laugh for some reason..hehe. So I just gotta wait and see if I manage to get an interview and then I'll have to be super nice and confidentx 10000000000!

Did more focking fence painting this morning, ew. We're not going too tomorrow it's so annoying and boring. So I am very very happy about that. I can roll out of bed at 10:30 now =D yay! It's basically ONE WEEK until Richie comes home, I can't wait I've missed him soooooooo much, I didn't think it possible. I want to make him something, but I don't wanna dirty my hands lol. Hamish comes back the week after so it'll be awesomeness to see him too.

I found the funkiest Cords and weird jeans/trousers in NEXT today too I so want to get them. They're like £20 each but I'm skint. Daddy said he'll buy them for me, but i was like 'uhm but i'll want money to go out with richie etc' so I'll just try and get enough for one pair for now and for going out and hope they keep some in stock when i do get money! <3 fingers and toes crossed i get interviews and a job.

I'm shocked at myself. I've had really long posts lately. that means i'll have silly small ones too. loves it. x

Everyone say hello to Jonny! HI JONNY hope you feel better soooon x
He is sitting in an internet cafe bless him. Yes a cafe that instead of serving coffee it serves one the interent. Loves it.
What a cool idea. x

[	Feeling	|	sleepy	]
[	Music	|	Jennifer Saunders - Holding Out For A Hero	]

It's so uncomfortably warm. It sucks ass. I could go sit in the garden, but like, what is there to do? I need to sit out there for a few hours to start tanning. I'm really bored it's not even funny, yesterday I was bored to the point of crying so I went to Sainsbury's and helped my nana and mother do their shopping! I'm super missing Richie & Hamish it's not even funny. Blah I only have another week of this too endure then Richie comes back!!! *!THANK THE DEAR LORD!* <-- well I would if I believed in him but blah.

So yeah for a while I've been interested in Kabbalah, not because Madonna and Britney are and stuff, but my dad used to study it. He's weird like that, he studies many different religions. So I got a few books from him with the lessons and diagrams and stuff. I have my family's support too if I do choose to become a Kabbahlist! We're not religious, well by birth we're christian but we don't believe it or anything. My brother and I, were left to make our own minds up which is cool.
I can relate to alot of stuff in the teachings of Kabbalah, the way I view and do things now is pretty similiar. I may go to the centre up Bond Street with Shaz (Simon) one day, too see how things are done and get a little introduction. Then I s'pose I decide whether I want to get into it properly!

Shrek 2 was cool, I went to see it with my cousin yesterday! We're getting really close again which is cool as we're going to Orlando with eachother in October! She's the sweetest little red head you've ever met! She's so smart for an 8 year old too, she can spell like EVERYTHING. She loves Avril, Evanescence & Britney too yay! We were talking about what she wants to do when she's older and she's got it all planned: She wants to be like Amy Lee and Avril and have her own little band and be famous by 18. And she sung for me too, she's actually not that bad for 8 years old! She'll seriously get there, she has a lot of confidence. What is it lately? Our family seem to be sprouting stars LOL!:
Nikki Scott
Me Jennifer

So we'll get on just dandy. It wasn't as funny as the first I thought, but still super fun and entertaining. The fairy godmother was my favourite, she rocked! talk about a singer! go go go jen! teehee! I love the cheesy songs <3
I'mma be on my own tonight until like 1AM I think, cuz mum and dad are going over to my aunt&uncles for dinner but I didn't want to go cos my cousin Bradley is like, obsessed with football and confuses me as soon as he opens his mouth. And he's 14, he don't wanna know me! And Grace, grr imagine Angelica from the Rugrats..that's what shes like! And my brother'll probably be over at his girlfriends. So imma watch Lizzie McGuire movie or something I s'pose. Whee!

That is right. I need a job for sure. I'm phoning Pizza Hut up monday and demanding a job!!! I NEED MONEY FOR ORLANDO IN OCTOBER! I'VE SAVED NOTHING!!! oh dear fuck me. also yayness I got me Julius the monkey pyjamas! ah Paul Frank was having a sale. I also purchased two sweatbands which are black & green. yay.

Quotes of the day:

"I told her to step off and she was like, 'whut?' and I was like 'No you don't' and she was like 'huh?' and I was like 'uh uh' and I mean... I set her hurr on fire. And whatchu you see now, that girl's wearing a weave. Shoot."

"I actually opened this book - and you know, I don't care for books"
"No you don't"
"No..heh..not very much. I don't. I don't like them. no"

"It's for the vagina baby"
"Oh no, you go ahead and buy your 'gina cream baby"

And PS. I really hurt my knee in covent garden. I like bent down to pick up a cd and my knee made this massive pop and like twisted sideways and i fell back like screaming in pain nearly in tears and my friend richie was like 'omg you whore, stop pulling a britney!" and like he helped me up only for me to mutter expletives and like limp in pain , throwing a kelis album at him and explained I hurt my right knee and britney hurt her left. Psh. x

[	Feeling	|	lazy	]
[	Music	|	Britney Spears - Slave 4U	]

Watching: Britney Spears - Slave 4U
Drinking: Water
Eating: Nothing

10 CD's Next To My CD Player:

1. Britney Spears - In The Zone
2. Avril Lavigne - Under My Skin
3. Rachel Stevens - Funky Dory
4. Daniel Bedingfield - Gotta Get Thru This
5. Christina Milian - It's About Time
6. Britney Spears - Oops!...I Did It Again
7. Kelis - Tasty
8. Amy Studt - False Smiles
9. Delta Goodrem - Innocent Eyes
10. Nikki Webster - Let's Dance

10 DVD's On My Shelf:

1. Moulin Rouge
2. Delta Goodrem - Innocent Eyes
3. The Simple Life
4. Britney - The Videos
5. Britney Spears - In The Zone
6. Britney - Live From Las Vegas
7. Finding Nemo
8. The Ring
9. The Wizard of OZ
10. Lord of the Rings: The Return of the king (Unopened!)

Woke up today to find mother and father have gone to Brighton for the day. So I went back to sleep until 9.30 then realised I could walk around in my underwear singing to Britney =D so I did. Then watched some TV and debated whether to watch Legally Blonde 2 or Lizzie McGuire movie...to which I ended up watching 32 mins of the Garfield movie. What shite. It's so boring and un-interesting. ew. Then I went on the PC for ages making images and writing songs and such. Then got a call from dad asking me to go and buy the paper cos my mum wanted some cd in it. I was thinking 'do they not have shops in brighton?' and I was like not in a happy mood. I just was like distant and hung up the phone before he said thanks and bye. Heh.
So I went and trekked out looking shit, my jeans hanging round my ass and hair tied back under a hat. nice. Spoke to the woman who owns the shop who i hadnt seen in a year. Bless I promised her I'd come back more often. Apparently she missed me. Sure, she just missed the money. Whore! LOL!

So now I'm sitting here trading MP3's with Rhys (the_soul_sound) we haven't spoken in a while, it's cool when we do! It's always about funky music or something teehe and I always manage to squeeze new songs out of him! Isn't that right Rhys? *Angelic*

I had more weird dreams last night, like involving people. They weren't disgusting but like Richie was in it as was Hamish and we were all in KU bar. I can't remember what happened. I think I like hugged Hamish or something and we danced to some funky retro song. LOL! Ah god I need a life. Seriously. Someone slap me!

Update later x

[	Feeling	|	irritated	]
[	Music	|	Jojo - Leave (Get Out)	]

Went up London today with Hamish was major fun, I was a little shy and like..yeah now that he knows. We met Jonny & Richie in KU and spent a couple of hours in there, signing and dancing. Whilst Hamish went for lunch Jonny asked if Hamish and I 'hooked up?' and I was like 'Sorry?' and he gestured soemthing, lol. I said I wanted to but I don't know how Hamish views me and Jonny had this massive grin on his face, so ..yah. Richie and I went for a walk and talked about stuff and got milkshake. When we came back to KU I felt uncomforable for some reason, Like I'd been gone too long and I missed Hamish alot. He was so cute in his little element and I just *wanted* to hold his hand or something. I'm such a scared dork. After we all went our own ways I like threw a fit at Richie how much of a dork I was and had totally ruined everything by sitting mostly in silence occassionally glancing at Hamish and stuff.

I know I might come across it to peoples face, but I am incredibly shy when it comes to this type of interacting with people. Richie reassured me it was fine, it was like an hour and I hadn't done anything bad. I seriously like wanted to cry. I didn't want Hamish to go :-( *sigh* so imma gonna dance around to some music and hope Hamish and his friends are safe at that club tonight and have many funs!

I hope to meet up with Hamish againbefore he goes to Italy for 2 weeks and 3 days, because I'll totally die on the spot if I don't. I'm gonna be a wreck without Hamish and Richie soon. They're going away on holiday for like 2 weeks at the same time! grr!

"EEEEW THAT'S SO LAME!" *points at pigeon things in china town* ew that was so gross, richie and I saw this restaraunt and it had these brown dead birds roasting and i like freaked and pointed and some man thought I was pointing at him...whoops! x

[	Feeling	|	lonely	]
[	Music	|	Brandy - Wow	]

i've been thinking about hamish alot today, im speaking to him on msn but im being kinda..quiet i dont wanna seem to "oh my god i totally dig you" or too distant so i might just sign off incase I make a fool of myself and say something I'll regret and say I have to go have dinner, which I do actually.
Awe it's hard, I've only been with one person ever for 3 weeks and I got hurt. Bad. I'm emotional. I allowed myself to fall too quick for the wrong reasons and I regret it. I was wrapped up in the moment and got my hopes up so high for someone bad for me. And I felt it. I just feel safe and comfortable around hamish *Sigh* we're going out saturday and spending the day together again which I'm like LIVING for right now. it's silly I know, blah I must sound like such a dork! My parents are going out for the day and evening so..yah beats sitting at home on my ass all day

Anyways to the usefulness of this post:

I really really really want Britney Spears - In The Zone DVD AUDIO they dont sell it here in the UK..sucky UK!
So someone buy it for me and i will love you forever and shower you with sparklyness! ~'*'~ Ah I can almost hear the melodic tones and sexiness of miss spears surrounding my ears! ^-^ look at the wonderfulness:

*Strokes affectionately*
also well done to josh on coming out, i'm thinking of you mister! it's fine honestly you're mama will come to terms with it soon enough!

[	Feeling	|	cheerful	]
[	Music	|	Natasha Bedingfield - These Words	]

Ah today was so much fun, Hamish is amazing. Seriously I never thought I'd meet someone like him. He's so sweet and charming and just..ahh :) we went to the tate gallery and had a ponder around there for an hour or so chatting and getting to know eachother. Then we went around by the mayors office and tower bridge etc messing around.

Then we went and got lunch and ate in Green Park where we saw sexy mother nature! Some fat russian woman with massive boobs hugging trees and talking to the squirrels! Hamish wants to do a sex with her. We named her Ocean Blue Orgasmic Skye Cloud. It's her wonderful name now. On another note Hamish has pigeon feet. Like pigeons kept coming so close to stare at his shoes. LOL.

Then we went up to Oxford circus and I danced around to toxic outside H&M only to be dragged away rudely :(
then we went to Soho sq. I was so reluctant I felt like a whore but it was actually quite nice just being close to Hamish and messing around! Then it was time for us to meet richie at waterloo...and so we did.

Hamish tottered off to the dentist and met us back at trafalgar square where some african parade thing was on teeehe!
then we got lost walking to covent garden and danced around outside this webcam thing and like, had fun. Then the best part Hamish took us into KU bar. This gay bar. It was sooo cool. I just like wanted to hold his hand and just..I dunno he's amazing. Whenever he wasnt watching or listening I'd mouth to richie "awww hamish..so cute" lol!
and in ku they played everytime and me and richie waved the candles around singing and stuff. this scary guy kept like staring at our table. He knew me and richie were fresh blood on the scene. ew. Contact with Hamish felt so special, like, our knees touching or him holding my hand for a second to get my phone it was like "woah" that hasn't happened before... so yah a brilliant day in all =D I'm sure my pimp richie will do a more detailed review from his perspective.

xxx